fucking amazing...
Saturday, July 11, 2009 @ 12:16 AM
today overall was a fucking great ass day. =] went shopping basically all day. got another dress =] and a new shirt and a jacket that i have to say i love them all but its a bummer cus i went out to buy me some new shoes. yess more than one pair. =] but i didnt get any shoes because i was caught up with buying me new clothes. oh well theres always tomorrow when my mommy wants to bring me shopping and i dont have to waste my own money. =]
so other than shopping i broke the news the official news to my family and they took it a lot better than i thought they would. im glad they understand im going through a lot with everything thats just been crashing down.
i wish i could say his family took it the same way my family did or i wish i could say he would take it the same way as other people did. i wish you would just realize im not doing this to like ruin your life, i didnt choose this for us. i didnt mean any of it but i cant make it any better if you dont realize it is just as much of your fault as it is mine. we are both at fault when it comes to this baby. we both decided to do things that would lead to this pregnancy. i just wish you would realize it doesnt matter if you are 17 or 18 to tell your parents. no matter what age you are or how you feel, we are still having this baby. yeah we might not be together and thats whatever but we still have a baby coming on the way. and we have to learn how to be civil to each other and learn to grow up a little bit. i had to be the bigger person and at least inform your parents. its the only right thing to do. i think its better telling them now then waiting months and months. im pretty sure they would be more pissed if i came knocking at your door with a little surprise.
we all say things out of anger and some things we mean and some we dont but its the only way to release all the tense thing we have in mind and yes it hurts and it fucking sucks. but we all just gotta learn how to cope with things and not take such thoughts to the head because sometimes over thinking shit can make someone fucking go crazy. these last 5 months have helped me as a person realize so many things. i guess its true when they say things happen for a reason. everything has helped me gain so much more strength and its helped me be more understanding to others and things around me.
this blog entry is WAYYY longer than i wanted it to be. so i guess thats it for now guys and thanks for reading. =]
current weight - 100 lbs.
weeks - just about 10 weeks.
weeks - just about 10 weeks.
hope whispers... learn how to grow up a little.
-hell you need it. ;]
