when the world screams give up, hope whispers try one more time.

Between who you are and who you could be.

Hi there. My name's Melanie. I'm not your average type of girl, I guess you can say I am a little out there but you can only really tell when you really get to know me. 99.8% of the time im the person who gets fucked over in the end. I'm a pretty brutally honest person but don't get me wrong, I can be extremely nice.

Thursday, June 23, 2011 @ 12:39 PM

with each passing day,
you break me a little more.
i didnt know that even possible
because im as broken as they come.

i make no sense, what so ever.

Sunday, June 19, 2011 @ 4:18 AM

i question myself every night why the fuck am i still waiting around for; then the whole "oh yeah, we are having a kid" comes into mind. but why is that stopping me from being truly happy and ''out there." fuck, i know youre out there doing whatever you fucking heart pleases as you break my heart into a million pieces over and over again. then why cant i have that same attitude and not give two fucks?

i need to learn to ignore some of my feelings because they do me no good. they only cause myself more pain and stress.

you say you care but quite honestly we ALL know you dont because you never show that you do. or you only "care" when you want something. you only do something i enjoy when it plays out into you favor.

you say all these things and 99.9% of the time it never makes sense because none of your actions back it up.

you are extremely stupid and blind to see that im not happy at all. even if you do see it, you must not care at all to help change it the slightest bit.

i think i wont walk away from it all beacause i think about all the time, effort, heart and soul i put "this" and i would hate to see all that go to waste and failure but sooner or later ill realize there is some body close by waiting to please my every desire. and yet a little piece of me hopes that some body will be you.

fuck it.

Sunday, June 5, 2011 @ 5:25 PM

i dont even know anymore and simply i dont even think i care anymore at this point.

i need to make me happy, with or without you in my life.