when the world screams give up, hope whispers try one more time.

Between who you are and who you could be.

Hi there. My name's Melanie. I'm not your average type of girl, I guess you can say I am a little out there but you can only really tell when you really get to know me. 99.8% of the time im the person who gets fucked over in the end. I'm a pretty brutally honest person but don't get me wrong, I can be extremely nice.

Friday, April 29, 2011 @ 2:53 PM

i dont know if its just the way i think or if everyone/some people think this way too but we talk/text everyday almost all day and we got into these little stupid annoying fights and i hate it. but i think you get mad or upset or whatever cus you very much still care about me or us. i wish we could just care/love each other and not fight but thats not realistic. i just hope one day when we get into these fights, you dont think, "why the hell am i still here talking to her and fighting, enoughs enough, i dont want her in my life." because no matter how much we fight and get upset i still want you in my life as friends as lovers or whatever for a long long long time. im not gonna say forever because thats just stupid and ill probably jinx it.

Thursday, April 28, 2011 @ 1:14 AM

im like 98% sure sunday will be my last day in ct for a LONG LONG LONG time. im more afraid and sad than excited that im gonna be moving to Colorado, like im kinda happy to be leaving ct but i dont want to move. i just want to get away for a month or so. but i dont really have a say on if ill be permanently moving, so ill just stick it out and "ride the wave."

Tuesday, April 26, 2011 @ 9:23 PM

i still miss us but im content with what we are and how we are now with each other. i rather have you here in my life as a friend than not have you in it at all. its still kinda hard to see you and know that i cant do the things we used to do or call you what i used to call you. but it is what it is and ill slowly get used to it. only time will tell where we stand.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011 @ 3:43 PM

theres no coming to a middle ground with you for anything. its always your way or you just dont care and shut me out. im tired of us arguing. i just want us to be civil and compromise with each others needs and wants. is that soo hard to do with me?

the love is still there but its fading. dont get me wrong i still very much care for you, but in terms of being in love with you still; i no longer know.