when the world screams give up, hope whispers try one more time.

Between who you are and who you could be.

Hi there. My name's Melanie. I'm not your average type of girl, I guess you can say I am a little out there but you can only really tell when you really get to know me. 99.8% of the time im the person who gets fucked over in the end. I'm a pretty brutally honest person but don't get me wrong, I can be extremely nice.

Sunday, March 27, 2011 @ 1:15 AM

for my 21st birthday, i wanna have a ABC party. i think everyone would have a lot of fun and i hope everyones creative with what they wear.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 @ 9:53 PM

it's literally killing me but i cant seem to let go.

Thursday, March 17, 2011 @ 10:17 AM

i told you i hated you sometimes but i just wanted to see your reaction.

"im afraid that since you say it so much, youre gonna start to feel that way."

i think i said it so much that you started to feel like you hated me. =[ fatal mistake.

8:43 AM

im praying and begging on my knees that this is all just a phase. and that youll hopefully know what i been telling you is meant to be.

i just want my boyfriend back..

yet again..

Tuesday, March 15, 2011 @ 5:11 AM

you ripped my heart right from my chest and stomped on it again. you lied to me everyday, messed with my heart and head. you tricked me right into falling in love with you. for what tho? did breaking my heart bring you joy, did you laugh at me all those times when i whispered to you about how much i love you... why would you even say those three words if you never felt that way... tell me what am i suppose to do now?

Friday, March 4, 2011 @ 1:16 PM

really now, youre gonna pretend that im not trying to talk to you? cus thats so mature. no wonder why people just up and leave you.

rip me open and watch me die.

1:24 AM

in my past relationships, things were easy sailing. but with you things are completely new and different. wow its been 14 months, it isnt as easy as it used to be between us. i feel like the more deeper we get into this, the harder it gets. we fight a little more, we say things they we dont entirely mean a little more and we cry a little more, well that one i can only speak for myself.

honestly, i wish you would show a little more affection towards me. it wouldnt hurt to tell me that you love me at random times. or give me kisses or tell me how much i mean to you. also it would mean the world to me just to hear you say that im beautiful, or things in that nature.

i dont understand how its so easy for you to tell other girls or say that other girls are soo pretty or attractive, but you never say things like that about me anymore. you used to tell me all the time how cute i am or when i sent you pictures, how pretty or beautiful i looked.