these thoughts come and go but they seem to leave a huge crater in my mind. all these what ifs and questions i cant seem to answer or even think of any reasonable solutions. so i told you i was done with everything to see if you cared and all you could think about was yourself yet again. nothing new, you questioned me about getting your necklace and bracelet back and that was it. you hate when i blog about things or talk to other people about how i feel but when i try to explain anything about how I feel you get mad or make it seem like its all my fault and you are that way cus i did something wrong. so no matter what, we can never resolve anything. we cant just continue with acting like nothing is wrong when we get into these disagreements.

i asked you to the movies so that we could talk about things and whatever but yet again you thought about yourself, stating that YOU wouldnt pick me up. i feel like most of the time, everything is about YOU or about your friends. have you ever once thought about how i would feel about things? when you go bowling i come along even tho i dread the thought of just sitting there bored outta my mind watching you bowl with some friends but i still come along to support something you absolutely love.

my mom personally asked you if you wanted to come to six flags with us and you know spend some time with MY family, you said yeah you would come along and then some ex girlfriend invites you to a couple of events and you drop my family plans for something an EX girlfriend ask until i invited the guys and you automatically changed your mind. i even asked you to include my sister in on going on rides since i wouldnt go on with you guys. and you straight out said NO I WANT TO RIDE WITH DOCTOR. when every time im over i hang out with your sister or try to help out your mom. you couldnt even help me or my mom out with going on rides with my sister.

you think that you show that you care. yeah SOMETIMES i can see what you try and care but thats just about it and sometimes isnt enough. this is how i see things, you and how you look comes first then your friends and who ever else and then me; at the very bottom.

sometimes i think im just too nice. yeah i can be mean and bitchy and i think thats all you see me as and you as the perfect boyfriend.