DAMNNN its been a while since ive been on here. recently got spider bites but thats not why im here blogging.

shits been kinda up and down lately. cant really do shit about it i guess.

lately ive been questioning myself about these stupid little things but when it comes to the big things i dont even think twice about it. its kinda very odd in way but whatevers.

i tend to say things i dont mean at all just because it makes it seem easier at the moment but in teh end its really doesnt make anything easier. it jsut makes it harder on myself. i should prolly stop that. but its weird cus im usually really straight forward, just sometimes i freeze up and dont know what to do or say.

btw, you do mean a great deal to me and what i said fuck things up just gotta learn to live with it. move on with it. sucks though. but what else can i do..