lucky  has been extremely good to me these last few months. dont get me wrong we still argue from time to time. but whenever im hungry or craving something, he gets me food. each morning, he rubs my tummy and back; before we go to sleep he itches my back and rubs my tummy till either one of us falls asleep first. he gets me ice cream/milkshakes/root beer floats/smoothies whenever he can, which is like almost all the time. 

i need to start showing him some more appreciation and a lot less bitchy-ness. thank you stink butt. ;)

it just needs to all stop and the truth needs to come out.

its right in front of me, everything i desire. yet i keep straying away from the path and i cant find the way back. i can no longer "keep going with the flow." how long is that suppose to last; i need to start taking life by the horns. i need to find away to take control.